Monday, January 31, 2011

Open journal: Morning thoughts

GM blogger world! Im up before the sun is even here to greet me. I woke up feeling so grateful and thankful for all the blessings that i have been given in life. I remember not too long ago dreading waking up at 8am or even 9am the mornings just weren't my thing. I have to be at work at 615 every morning and i never thought i would see the day when i would have to do this! lol True sometimes i dnt want to get out of the warm bed and go out into the cold winter air, but i do and it doesnt seem that bad. I'm thankful i have a job. There are people and things that do try to bring me down or get me out of the good mood that im in but that fails to work. Its too early for attitudes and every minute you spend angry or upset is 60 seconds you cant get back that should have been spent smiling. Life is difficult when you let it become that way.Ive realized that focusing on negative things blocks your blessings and when you receive them you wont even know it because the negative has blinded you from seeing it. When people feel pain it only last for 12 minutes, everything after that is self inflicted and its always so easy to complain and see the bad. Count your blessings not your problems!

Hugs & ℒℴѵℯ

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Friday, January 28, 2011

a little red

I begged for these shoes for christmas lol..i thought they were the cutest shoes..and ive never seen anyone with them on ( i like being different) but anywhoo i am in love with these shoes, they're water proof stylish and comfy triple win on that one!!! the pics of my outfit are just to show what i wore the shoes with because it was kinda hard to figure out what to wear with the shoes but i made it work the Zara pants are brown plaid and have a red stripe in them and i thought that went well with the shoes. I usually dont do "what i wore" post but when i get a great shoe i have to share the look :) hope you guys like it!

White button up, Zara pants, Zara belt, Target fur vest, Sporto duck shoes, Pashmina silk blend scarf

Monday, January 24, 2011

hair hair...everywhere

GM bloggers!! Im currently at i probably shouldnt be bloggin but its early and no one is here. I took a pic of my big hair lol its looked like this for 3 days without me co-washing it to define the curls more. The diffuser i bought is the answer to me frizzy hair prayers! if you guys could see my curly hair and compare them from a this past summer to now you would think i stole someone elses hair haha! ok maybe im being a little dramatic but you can def see a difference! not that my hair texture was horrible before but if you have ever suffered from frizzy hair that seemed like it would never go away you will understand where im coming from! but anyway enough about my hair epiphany haha!!

Hair this morning...i shook it and left lol

my hair last night
I hope everyone has a wonderful and blessed day :)

Hugs and Love!!

Friday, January 21, 2011


This past weekend was my friend jadas bday party! she turned the big 25!! shes so old lol but im not far from it...the bday was pretty much a big college reunion! I'm sooo incredibly grateful and thankful for having these people in my life! There is never a dull moment when im around them and even tho there are things that dont go as planned or we have our disagreements we still love each at the end of the day :)

we clearly werent ready lol

me and crazy td :)

Antii,Brit,Tif,Me i love them!

My last post i was kinda down and about finding out about my friends death, seeing my friends kinda lifted my spirits and made me feel a little better. I still think about him often but the hurt that i was feeling subsiding.

Hugs and ℒℴѵℯ !

Friday, January 14, 2011

"life lessons from the ocean water...

...the waves will pull you out further before they take you back to shore.”

Back in the summer of 2008 i was home from school and back to working at Zara. Mostly everyone there i already knew except this one beautiful face lol. He was the new cashier in womens and some new eye candy to have at the store! He introduced himself as soon as i got there, "Hi im Davon!" *reaches out to shake my hand* he was from Baltimore and was a Kappa at Howard University, after that intro we became friends fairly quickly. It surprised me how friendly he was, and how he talked to everyone he met. We would playfully flirt back and forth and he would call the mens department to talk to me even tho i was literally 10 steps away haha. We even played tic-tac-toe when he would walk back and forth doing stock checks :) it was fun and everything about him was so positive!

He would always ask me " When you going to the movies with me?" and me being me i would always put it off until one day we both worked at the same time and got off at the same time so we walked down the street to the theater to see Hancock with Will Smith. He talked my head off the entire movie trying to get to know me better lol but that was just his character. When the movie was over we walked to the train station together and talked some more about random things. I told him my middle name which is Mckenzie and ever since then he would yell it really loud and would sound like a an elderly southern lady that was looking for her teeth lol. I've never really liked my middle name but for some reason i decided to tell him (go figure) and him calling me Mckenzie didnt bother me. The rest of the summer we kept up with our regular work routines playing games on the receipt paper and calling each other, that summer at Zara was definitely fun because of him. I went back to school in august and we texted occasionally after i left. The next time i saw him was that winter back at the same place we met, it was random but i was glad to see him. We walked around as he looked for something to buy from j.crew and went to Dean and Deluca after, we caught up a little bit and then went our separate ways after those few hours of just chillin in the cold. We continued to randomly text each other and then we kinda just stopped. Toward the end of 2009 and early 2010 we got in contact again he told me that he got a new job as the manager at childrens place and a moved somewhere out Maryland and wanted me to come visit. We made plans to do so but it fell through probably because of me but i dont remember exactly why. The next time we talked i was back at school and was feeling bad that i didnt get a chance to see him while i was home.

I want to say that Feb was the last time that i talked to him. Today i found out that he died. I tried to find everything to disprove that it wasnt the same Davon, it couldnt be!! But it was and i was crushed and what made it worse was that he died a while ago on a trip to Cancun. I had no idea no clue that he hasnt been around for that long. I was on twitter when someone said "I started livin my life differently and opening up and loving more people when Davon died." I sat there and looked at the tweet for a while thinking " No!! cant possibly be the same Davon i know" I looked on facebook to see he had any new posts but his wall was gone i looked on twitter and his last tweet was on March 14th..but this still wasnt good enough i needed to know how? when? where? and then i googled his name. It was true the news did a report on his death stating that he drowned on a trip to cancun during his spring break. The tears started to flow down my face as I watched the news story i started to think about everything we did or said to each other and the fact that i havent talked to him in almost a year. I guess i just figured that he would always be around and that is what is making this so hard for me..the fact that i our friendship kinda fell through the cracks and i didnt see him when he wanted me to. This really hurts. The quote in the title that goes to the top on the post was one of his last tweets and i cant stop crying. I would randomly think about him when i passed a childrens place or something else that would remind me of him not even thinking that he could have passed away. That was the furthest thing from my mind but maybe it shouldnt have been. Maybe i should have treated each day with everyone that i know as the last i will ever see or talk to them because the feeling that i have right now is one of the worst ive felt in a long time.

So please take advantage of everyday and make sure you keep in touch with those important people in your life that have made a difference or impacted your life in some way! I am happy that i got a chance to have known someone who was full of positive energy and a great outlook on life.

"If you admire somebody, you should go 'head and tell em', people never get the flowers while they can still smell em'" -Kanye

Hug and Love everyone as often as you can!!!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

it heals my soul

a five letter word that can do so much...MUSIC

Currently listening to Soulmate-Natasha Beddingfield...volume to the max drowning out my thoughts and negative vibes. With music I have a chance to travel to my own world where everything is perfect, the worries of reality and problems of the day dont exist and I am at peace.
All the things that troubled me no longer do as the words of the song seem to match the emotion and feeling that I was having, letting me know that "...I'm not the only one..."

Next on the playlist...Teach me a lesson-Robin Thicke, A lil bit-Drake feat Lykke Li and Starstruck-Santogold. Three totally different songs and yet it is still a smooth transition from one to the next...the beats make that place in my mind thats HECTIC and OVERWHELMED calm and carefree. Music is a drug gets me and lets me forget about my lows. Cheers-Rihanna and Sacred Temple-N.E.R.D gives me happy feet lol and then dancing becomes my thang! even though I have to sometimes be considerate when it comes to my family and them not necessarily wanting to hear the same music im listening to lol, i cant help but turn it up louder so that I can feel the music through my body!

Peace Happiness and Sanity from my speakers to my soul :)

Hugs and ℒℴѵℯ!

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Natural hair blogger award goes to.....

I know this post is mad late...but i have made a choice!

Looking for a natural hair blogger that not only has natural hair but also is influential to other bloggers. This decision was tough because there are soooo many blogs that I loved and that I felt would inspire others to love their natural hair!

So everyone meet Natural Chica!

She is a well known blogger about natural and the beauty of it. You need advice about anything hair related from hair products to how to styling videos...she's got it! This is one of the reasons I chose her. The website is full of information for everyone to use and she takes you with her through her natural hair journey. Seeing someone who loves their hair as much as I love my own is awesome and she seems to support and interested in all those that she comes across that have natural hair! More people should embrace their own hair types and textures :)

She is currently having a Natural Chica hoodie giveaway to followers or subscribers of her site! In the picture that I posted she is wearing the hoodie. You can click on the pic to get to the blog post about the giveaway. She also sells Natural Chica t-shirts in an array of colors and i might add that they look extremely comfortable. I hope that she continues to inspire other natural hair bloggers or just bloggers in general to love their hair :)

I'd like to thank those of you who made suggestions on who should be recognized in this post and thanks for reading my blog :)

Hugs and ℒℴѵℯ!

why hugs?

I was recently asked why i end all my post with Hugs and Love? Which made me think..Why do I end all my post with that? lol Its has to be more than just a salutation..right? There's got to be more!

Then I realized Hugs are one of life's gifts that are not only FREE but they make you feel great and make you feel loved especially when it comes from someone thats really important :) idk i guess ive always been the type of person that hugs haha im a "hugger" which isnt a bad thing and I really appreciate them! There is a guy i know that gave me the best hugs ever and he would never let me go :) So give some one a hug today!

Big hugs and lots of ℒℴѵℯ :)

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

outfits in my mind

out and about

out and about by kenzief918 featuring a crossbody tote

I tend to randomly think of outfits in my mind from articles of clothing that I already own but put them into different looks and write them down in my bb. This post and the post "a lil something" is pretty much illustrating what pops in my head lol enjoy!! :)

Hugs and

Sunday, January 2, 2011

A new year

Its 2011!! Happy New year guys...i hope everyones holiday was enjoyable and safe :) I brought in the New Year with my family at the movies and it was full of laughter and love the best way to start something new :) Leaving all the negative in the past and coming in 2011 with a positive attitude is a great feeling. I really didnt have a New years resolution, i always attempt to do something and forget about it 2 weeks later lol so this time im just going to continue to work on myself and become a better person. If you know better you do better...right? 2010 has def challenged me and i have learned so much from my mistakes im glad its over and so ready so this new year to make me better!

I wish everyone happiness and blessings this year and if you dont do anything this year always chase your dreams

my bro, mom, me at the movies NYE!

‎2011: new memories, new love, new people, new happiness, new tears, new mistakes, new year! ♥

New Hugs and ℒℴѵℯ