Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Monday, August 8, 2011
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Deals Deals Deals!!!!
Every morning i check my email, and thanks to my mother every morning GROUPON sends me the most amazing deals ever, or at least they are that to me lol. I always find myself seriously debating on whether or not i should be buying that "deal of the day." Being from and living in DC you know that things here are NOT cheap unless you go to a museum (which is free) and finding any kind of deal is like a little piece of heaven being shared with you!
This AM im sitting here contemplating on whether or not im able to go to a Nationals Baseball game lol and i dnt even like baseball, but its an awesome deal for great field level seats! and $10 of what you pay is for a concession credit!!!!! Maybe im overly excited lol i probably wont buy this deal because i have other things i need to pay for but in any other case i would be attending a baseball game :)
Hugs and Love!
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Open Journal: Forgive and Forget?
There have been several relationships in my life (friends, fam, etc) where i felt as though the relationship would last forever. Contrary to my thoughts i was proven wrong and the feeling of betrayal or even the fact that soemthing happened that you never expected would happen was strange. When it comes to me i dont trust easily and im pretty selective with choosing who i associate myself with. Ive been this way for as long as i can remember. I'm not one for drama or negativity but of course you cant always hide from it and it tends to find you no matter how much you dont want it to.
Im dont hold grudges. I really think they are pointless because while your wasting time begin angry at someone that person is out living their life not even thinking about you or your grudge. What happend in the past happend (probably for a reason) and theres not much that can be done to change the results of the hurt and loss of the relationship. Ppl always say its better to forgive and forget but is it really? I always forgive...who am i not to? But the whole forget part is kinda hard. I try not to let the situation get the best of me but i guess if totally forget about it then i will totally be free from it all. Im still trying to work on this forgetting thing but its hard when the person keeps popping back in your life randomly and you dnt necessarily want them back but dnt want to be rude (because your bigger than that..right?) and it seems like theres not much you can really do but just advoid them but thats hard when you live in the same city and have alot of the same friends and associates. I know that the relationship will never be the way it used to be not that i want it to be, and it sucks that things turned out the way they did but at the end of the day ive learned a lesson and it made me stronger. Not saying that i will put up a brick wall and refuse to open myself up to anyone else its just i now know what to do and how to handle a situation is arises again. :)
I wont let negative things hinder my life, keep going and keep growing!
Hugs and love
PS. I cant wait until the spring weather is here for good because these 35 degree days are killin me! lol
Im dont hold grudges. I really think they are pointless because while your wasting time begin angry at someone that person is out living their life not even thinking about you or your grudge. What happend in the past happend (probably for a reason) and theres not much that can be done to change the results of the hurt and loss of the relationship. Ppl always say its better to forgive and forget but is it really? I always forgive...who am i not to? But the whole forget part is kinda hard. I try not to let the situation get the best of me but i guess if totally forget about it then i will totally be free from it all. Im still trying to work on this forgetting thing but its hard when the person keeps popping back in your life randomly and you dnt necessarily want them back but dnt want to be rude (because your bigger than that..right?) and it seems like theres not much you can really do but just advoid them but thats hard when you live in the same city and have alot of the same friends and associates. I know that the relationship will never be the way it used to be not that i want it to be, and it sucks that things turned out the way they did but at the end of the day ive learned a lesson and it made me stronger. Not saying that i will put up a brick wall and refuse to open myself up to anyone else its just i now know what to do and how to handle a situation is arises again. :)
I wont let negative things hinder my life, keep going and keep growing!
Hugs and love
PS. I cant wait until the spring weather is here for good because these 35 degree days are killin me! lol
Friday, January 14, 2011
"life lessons from the ocean water...
...the waves will pull you out further before they take you back to shore.”
Back in the summer of 2008 i was home from school and back to working at Zara. Mostly everyone there i already knew except this one beautiful face lol. He was the new cashier in womens and some new eye candy to have at the store! He introduced himself as soon as i got there, "Hi im Davon!" *reaches out to shake my hand* he was from Baltimore and was a Kappa at Howard University, after that intro we became friends fairly quickly. It surprised me how friendly he was, and how he talked to everyone he met. We would playfully flirt back and forth and he would call the mens department to talk to me even tho i was literally 10 steps away haha. We even played tic-tac-toe when he would walk back and forth doing stock checks :) it was fun and everything about him was so positive!
He would always ask me " When you going to the movies with me?" and me being me i would always put it off until one day we both worked at the same time and got off at the same time so we walked down the street to the theater to see Hancock with Will Smith. He talked my head off the entire movie trying to get to know me better lol but that was just his character. When the movie was over we walked to the train station together and talked some more about random things. I told him my middle name which is Mckenzie and ever since then he would yell it really loud and would sound like a an elderly southern lady that was looking for her teeth lol. I've never really liked my middle name but for some reason i decided to tell him (go figure) and him calling me Mckenzie didnt bother me. The rest of the summer we kept up with our regular work routines playing games on the receipt paper and calling each other, that summer at Zara was definitely fun because of him. I went back to school in august and we texted occasionally after i left. The next time i saw him was that winter back at the same place we met, it was random but i was glad to see him. We walked around as he looked for something to buy from j.crew and went to Dean and Deluca after, we caught up a little bit and then went our separate ways after those few hours of just chillin in the cold. We continued to randomly text each other and then we kinda just stopped. Toward the end of 2009 and early 2010 we got in contact again he told me that he got a new job as the manager at childrens place and a moved somewhere out Maryland and wanted me to come visit. We made plans to do so but it fell through probably because of me but i dont remember exactly why. The next time we talked i was back at school and was feeling bad that i didnt get a chance to see him while i was home.
I want to say that Feb was the last time that i talked to him. Today i found out that he died. I tried to find everything to disprove that it wasnt the same Davon, it couldnt be!! But it was and i was crushed and what made it worse was that he died a while ago on a trip to Cancun. I had no idea no clue that he hasnt been around for that long. I was on twitter when someone said "I started livin my life differently and opening up and loving more people when Davon died." I sat there and looked at the tweet for a while thinking " No!! cant possibly be the same Davon i know" I looked on facebook to see he had any new posts but his wall was gone i looked on twitter and his last tweet was on March 14th..but this still wasnt good enough i needed to know how? when? where? and then i googled his name. It was true the news did a report on his death stating that he drowned on a trip to cancun during his spring break. The tears started to flow down my face as I watched the news story i started to think about everything we did or said to each other and the fact that i havent talked to him in almost a year. I guess i just figured that he would always be around and that is what is making this so hard for me..the fact that i our friendship kinda fell through the cracks and i didnt see him when he wanted me to. This really hurts. The quote in the title that goes to the top on the post was one of his last tweets and i cant stop crying. I would randomly think about him when i passed a childrens place or something else that would remind me of him not even thinking that he could have passed away. That was the furthest thing from my mind but maybe it shouldnt have been. Maybe i should have treated each day with everyone that i know as the last i will ever see or talk to them because the feeling that i have right now is one of the worst ive felt in a long time.
So please take advantage of everyday and make sure you keep in touch with those important people in your life that have made a difference or impacted your life in some way! I am happy that i got a chance to have known someone who was full of positive energy and a great outlook on life.
"If you admire somebody, you should go 'head and tell em', people never get the flowers while they can still smell em'" -Kanye
Hug and Love everyone as often as you can!!!
Back in the summer of 2008 i was home from school and back to working at Zara. Mostly everyone there i already knew except this one beautiful face lol. He was the new cashier in womens and some new eye candy to have at the store! He introduced himself as soon as i got there, "Hi im Davon!" *reaches out to shake my hand* he was from Baltimore and was a Kappa at Howard University, after that intro we became friends fairly quickly. It surprised me how friendly he was, and how he talked to everyone he met. We would playfully flirt back and forth and he would call the mens department to talk to me even tho i was literally 10 steps away haha. We even played tic-tac-toe when he would walk back and forth doing stock checks :) it was fun and everything about him was so positive!
He would always ask me " When you going to the movies with me?" and me being me i would always put it off until one day we both worked at the same time and got off at the same time so we walked down the street to the theater to see Hancock with Will Smith. He talked my head off the entire movie trying to get to know me better lol but that was just his character. When the movie was over we walked to the train station together and talked some more about random things. I told him my middle name which is Mckenzie and ever since then he would yell it really loud and would sound like a an elderly southern lady that was looking for her teeth lol. I've never really liked my middle name but for some reason i decided to tell him (go figure) and him calling me Mckenzie didnt bother me. The rest of the summer we kept up with our regular work routines playing games on the receipt paper and calling each other, that summer at Zara was definitely fun because of him. I went back to school in august and we texted occasionally after i left. The next time i saw him was that winter back at the same place we met, it was random but i was glad to see him. We walked around as he looked for something to buy from j.crew and went to Dean and Deluca after, we caught up a little bit and then went our separate ways after those few hours of just chillin in the cold. We continued to randomly text each other and then we kinda just stopped. Toward the end of 2009 and early 2010 we got in contact again he told me that he got a new job as the manager at childrens place and a moved somewhere out Maryland and wanted me to come visit. We made plans to do so but it fell through probably because of me but i dont remember exactly why. The next time we talked i was back at school and was feeling bad that i didnt get a chance to see him while i was home.
I want to say that Feb was the last time that i talked to him. Today i found out that he died. I tried to find everything to disprove that it wasnt the same Davon, it couldnt be!! But it was and i was crushed and what made it worse was that he died a while ago on a trip to Cancun. I had no idea no clue that he hasnt been around for that long. I was on twitter when someone said "I started livin my life differently and opening up and loving more people when Davon died." I sat there and looked at the tweet for a while thinking " No!! cant possibly be the same Davon i know" I looked on facebook to see he had any new posts but his wall was gone i looked on twitter and his last tweet was on March 14th..but this still wasnt good enough i needed to know how? when? where? and then i googled his name. It was true the news did a report on his death stating that he drowned on a trip to cancun during his spring break. The tears started to flow down my face as I watched the news story i started to think about everything we did or said to each other and the fact that i havent talked to him in almost a year. I guess i just figured that he would always be around and that is what is making this so hard for me..the fact that i our friendship kinda fell through the cracks and i didnt see him when he wanted me to. This really hurts. The quote in the title that goes to the top on the post was one of his last tweets and i cant stop crying. I would randomly think about him when i passed a childrens place or something else that would remind me of him not even thinking that he could have passed away. That was the furthest thing from my mind but maybe it shouldnt have been. Maybe i should have treated each day with everyone that i know as the last i will ever see or talk to them because the feeling that i have right now is one of the worst ive felt in a long time.
So please take advantage of everyday and make sure you keep in touch with those important people in your life that have made a difference or impacted your life in some way! I am happy that i got a chance to have known someone who was full of positive energy and a great outlook on life.
"If you admire somebody, you should go 'head and tell em', people never get the flowers while they can still smell em'" -Kanye
Hug and Love everyone as often as you can!!!
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