Open Journal: Forgive and Forget?

There have been several relationships in my life (friends, fam, etc) where i felt as though the relationship would last forever. Contrary to my thoughts i was proven wrong and the feeling of betrayal or even the fact that soemthing happened that you never expected would happen was strange. When it comes to me i dont trust easily and im pretty selective with choosing who i associate myself with. Ive been this way for as long as i can remember. I'm not one for drama or negativity but of course you cant always hide from it and it tends to find you no matter how much you dont want it to.

Im dont hold grudges. I really think they are pointless because while your wasting time begin angry at someone that person is out living their life not even thinking about you or your grudge. What happend in the past happend (probably for a reason) and theres not much that can be done to change the results of the hurt and loss of the relationship. Ppl always say its better to forgive and forget but is it really? I always forgive...who am i not to? But the whole forget part is kinda hard. I try not to let the situation get the best of me but i guess if totally forget about it then i will totally be free from it all. Im still trying to work on this forgetting thing but its hard when the person keeps popping back in your life randomly and you dnt necessarily want them back but dnt want to be rude (because your bigger than that..right?) and it seems like theres not much you can really do but just advoid them but thats hard when you live in the same city and have alot of the same friends and associates. I know that the relationship will never be the way it used to be not that i want it to be, and it sucks that things turned out the way they did but at the end of the day ive learned a lesson and it made me stronger. Not saying that i will put up a brick wall and refuse to open myself up to anyone else its just i now know what to do and how to handle a situation is arises again. :)

I wont let negative things hinder my life, keep going and keep growing!

Hugs and love

PS. I cant wait until the spring weather is here for good because these 35 degree days are killin me! lol

Open Journal

Happy Monday!! lol Its the most hated day of the week yet im still happy and very thankful! Its also Valentines Day so you know what that means....candy,balloons, flowers, cards, gifts and food! lol Too bad im not getting any of those thing :( but i will be ok, the pain of this day is only temporary haha ok enough of the sad Vday talk. I had a wonderful weekend, kinda bittersweet. My friend that i met freshman year in college is moving away because she got a wonderful job offer and its where her boyfriend of 5 years lives as well. Friday we threw her a surprise going away party and she was bought to tears and was extremely happy that we did this for her and her boyfriend even came up to surprise her (aww how sweet right?) At the end of the night when we were all about to leave we were all talking and he came over to her and said that he loved her and got down on one knee and asked her to marry him!!!!! (crying as i type this) What a perfect way to end one chapter and start a new one. I love them both so much and i was literally waiting for this day to come :) It was a surprise to us all and im glad that i was able to share it with them! Im def going to miss her living close to me but our friendship wont be effected by this move...shes a life long friend and im blessed to have her as one!

So whether you have a Valentine, in a relationship or just living the single life, i hope that everyone enjoys their day and tell someone that you love them :) Do any of you guys have a Valentine or plans for today?

Happy Love Day :)

Open journal: Morning thoughts

GM blogger world! Im up before the sun is even here to greet me. I woke up feeling so grateful and thankful for all the blessings that i have been given in life. I remember not too long ago dreading waking up at 8am or even 9am the mornings just weren't my thing. I have to be at work at 615 every morning and i never thought i would see the day when i would have to do this! lol True sometimes i dnt want to get out of the warm bed and go out into the cold winter air, but i do and it doesnt seem that bad. I'm thankful i have a job. There are people and things that do try to bring me down or get me out of the good mood that im in but that fails to work. Its too early for attitudes and every minute you spend angry or upset is 60 seconds you cant get back that should have been spent smiling. Life is difficult when you let it become that way.Ive realized that focusing on negative things blocks your blessings and when you receive them you wont even know it because the negative has blinded you from seeing it. When people feel pain it only last for 12 minutes, everything after that is self inflicted and its always so easy to complain and see the bad. Count your blessings not your problems!

Hugs & ℒℴѵℯ

Being a better me

a while ago i was at church function and i noticed a blind man in the congregation. I had never seen him before so i decided to sit with him after church when they served food just to talk. He was a really nice man that knows someone else in my church and thats why he decided to come. He seemed to care about alot and i guess when you have a handicap you learn to appreciate the small things in life and not take things for granted. Everything he talked about he described as "amazing" or "wonderful" from the sermon to the baked chicken that was served after the service. :) i really love when i meet people like that positive about life and always seeing the good in things. Negativity takes way too much time and effort i'd rather just be happy and if things dont go right then move on and know that something good will eventually happen. Patience is a key. He made me look at my own actions even though i already try to be appreciative I could always improve it and not always get upset about small things. Things could always be worse and realize that someone else's struggle is worse than your own!

"We should look at the world through blind eyes and learn to appreciate the small" -Me

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving so lets be thankful for everything that we have and the be thankful for all the negative things that have left our life! :)

Hugs and Love!

beliefs

Religion plays a big role in not only my life but society. Whether the religion of choice is christianity, islamic, jewish etc. it is still a belief system in a higher power. When people start off religious or believe in something and then all of a sudden stop because..."people in church are hippocrates" or "its nothing but evil people in church anyway" kinda upsets me because they let others peoples choices or ways effect their own views, especially people that claim to be "individuals" but let something like hippocrates influence you life or choice. First no one is perfect and believing in something higher than yourself has nothing to do with others...its all you...what you feel is right and not what the people around you are doing or believing. Granted the reason you probably have some sort of faith or belief system is probably from family members but its up to you to know whats right and what wrong and to know the difference when it comes to letting certain things influence your life. Not saying that everyone has to believe in something but dont blame you lack of or declining beliefs on someone else.

-KenzieLeigh